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The opportunities are limitless…How many do you want?

I want a lot of things, and although I don’t always get most of them, one thing’s for sure, I’m going to certainly try! I already wear a thousands hats, and I’ve decided to add another one to my collection: Grant Writer! Writing is a gift that I’ve been blessed with, and I love what I do! I’ve always known I wanted to write for the rest of my life, whether paid or not, and get excited every time I get a pen in my hand.

Recently, I wanted to go beyond the parameters I tried to confine myself to, and seek to become a Grant Writer. After doing my research, I decided to invest my time, energy and efforts, and enrolled online to fulfill (one of many) my dreams. I’m a week into class, and let’s just say, I’ll need to know more than just writing, in order to become a Grant Writer. To be honest, writing is just a pre-requisite to getting started.

Although I was extremely overwhelmed by the wealth of information I’ve learned this far, it’s not enough to make me want to give up and quit. Often, this is too many peoples story, because they don’t want to put in the work and often look for shortcuts (see post on “No shortcuts to success”). However, anything worth having is worth fighting for, so I’m going to fight and stay with this, until I reach my goal, of becoming a Certified Grant Writing Consultant.

I know there have probably been times where you were told, you weren’t going to amount to anything, or that was just too impossible for you to do. But, “nothing’s impossible when the word itself says ‘possible'”. You can do anything you set your mind to do, and the age old expression still stands: the sky is the limit! Don’t settle or subscribed to someone else’s ideologies for your life, when you’re the one that’s got to do the living!

Remember, the opportunities are limitless….How many do you want?

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

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WANTED!

Daddy I need you

I love “love”, and even though I’m not in it, I sit and dream of the day it’ll find me. Speaking of find, often times, I find myself gravitating towards seasoned (older) men. To be honest, they’re all I seem to be attracted to.   It’s not that younger men don’t appeal to me, but I just feel a mature man is more prepared to offer me a lot of things that I need: stability and protection (to name a couple)….two of the most important things I longed for in a father.   It wasn’t until I became older, that I realized the reason for my attraction to seasoned men.  I was desperately trying to obtain the things from them that I needed, but didn’t get from my “father”.   But, I know I can’t expect my husband to be my “daddy”.  Without an ounce of shame, I am 34 years old, and still looking for a father!  Without lodging any (more) attacks, I was not fortunate enough to have a father, or father-figure growing up.  Although there was a male present in the home, his presence was not there.

I wasn’t a “daddy’s girl”, nor did I have anyone to protect or provide (financially, emotionally or physically) for me.  There was no“Knight and Shining Armor” or a man that I wanted my husband to be “just like”.   If anything, I wanted him to be the complete opposite!  I know the saying goes that “a woman’s first love is her father”, but I never got the chance to experience that.  That put me in a position (and still does) of complete disservice as a child and teenager.  To be honest, there’s nothing I find more cruel than someone who willingly refuses to participate in the life of the person they “participated” in helping to create.

Because of that, I’ve experienced a lot of resentment, anger, hate and years of unforgiveness towards my “father”.   Besides, how am I to know what my children’s father is supposed to be or do, when I didn’t have anyone to serve as that model for me?

You’re still what I need!   

I know people are probably saying, “just let it go”, “the past is the past”, but how can I, when it’s still affecting me mentally and emotionally, not to mention, my relationships with men.   I know how I want to be treated by a man, but I should’ve had someone teaching me the things to look for, watch out for and not settle for. Instead, I had to take what I experienced as a child, and use that as my guide for “dealing” with men.  That’s not to say men know it all when it comes to other men, nor should you expect one to tell you everything there is to know about men, because somethings are just pure common sense.  However, I believe had I had that male role model, it would’ve saved me from a few hiccups in my life, as it relates to men and relationships.

Regardless if you’re a young male or female, the role a father plays in your life is absolutely important and necessary.  We can agree or disagree, but a mother (no matter how much credit she gives to herself) cannot play or fill the void of a father! There are some things a woman can’t give to her child(ren), like a father would, and vice versa.  Although I am extremely fortunate to have my mother in my life, and despite her being there growing up, there are just somethings she couldn’t provide to me that my “father” needed to.  If that were the case, I wouldn’t be writing this.

Men, please understand that you are valued, loved and play a huge integral role in the lives of your child(ren), regardless if you’ve been told different.  I don’t care what your relationship is with your children’s mother, just don’t use it as an excuse to not play your part.

If you willingly choose to walk away or neglect your responsibilities, not only will you invoke immense pain upon your children, but they too may end up in Counseling one day, just as I am, trying to deal with the b****** my “father” did to me!

Sounds like hurt? Probably because I still am….just as I’m still questioning and still wondering what it would’ve been like had I had a father.  I know I’m older, but no matter how old you get, everyone still needs their father!

Writefully yours, 

Deetra La’Rue

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The Journey Begins

Welcome to Notes by LaRue!

I am Deetra La’Rue, a 34-year-old Writer hailing from Montgomery, AL. I’ve been writing poetry passionately since the age of 14, and have recently expanded into self-help/motivational books. I recently published my first book, Glitter but no gold: How I turned my wounds into wisdom, and am gearing up for the release of my second book, Let’s TALK! Conversations that need to be had, but often go undone. I’ve been through some pretty rough situations in my life, and I always remained quiet, because I just knew, there was no way no one could experience the things I had.  But, after the release of my first book and realizing the commonality I had with others, I decided to start a website that would serve as motivation and encouragement to everyone all over the world! So many times we find ourselves in detrimental situations that we feel we’ll never get out of.  However, it doesn’t matter how your story starts, but how it ends, and you CAN DETERMINE how it ends! So friends, (I don’t consider you to be a visitor, because that implies you’re only here for a little while) you can expect to receive daily notes and positive affirmations that will help you find the very thing I found for myself….happiness and freedom!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

It’s okay to fall down sometimes. Just don’t stay there! — Deetra La’Rue

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