More than you’ll ever know

When I look back on my awards, degrees and times of recognition, I say, “Wow! You did that! I’m so proud of you”. Today, I understand the value of all those accolades, because I didn’t see it then. To be honest, I didn’t look at them as accomplishments, but merely something I “had to do”. I’d literally “live in the moment”, and quickly move on to the next thing. “You can’t dwell too long”, I’d tell myself. “Keep it moving, or you’ll be put in a position where you can’t”. Good riddance! No wonder I couldn’t enjoy the fruits of my labor. However, I now realize, they are worth more than I’ll ever know. I don’t take any of it for granted or think so little of it, because there are many people who didn’t have the privilege of going to college and earn two degrees like me, let alone one. I’m grateful for every accomplishment, because it lets me know I not only “did that”, but I EARNED it….and all the adoration as well!

Anything you do, regardless of how big or small, always be proud!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Worthy

Legacy Awards 2020 Recipient of the Coretta Scott King Award

On Sunday, February 09, 2020, I was awarded the Coretta Scott King Legacy Award, for my Community Service, Human Rights, and Social Justice efforts. As I should have been overjoyed with excitement, I really couldn’t be, because I was too busy questioning God, “Why me”? When my sisters recognized me at our family reunion last year, I was honored, but internally, I questioned “There’s four of us, so why me”? When I was asked to serve as Keynote Speaker at church, I screamed, “Oh no! Dear God, why me”? I couldn’t fathom or understand how someone so undeserving as me, deserved to be recognized, because in my eyes, what they saw, I couldn’t see.

Not a day goes by that I don’t receive an email, text or phone call, from someone thanking me for what I’ve done for them, yet I can’t seem to recall what I did. There isn’t anything distinctive that comes to mind, except there’s nothing extraordinary about a woman who’s so ordinary. So, again I ask, “Why me”? After many self-reflections, I no longer question, “Why me”? Instead, I just thank God for using me! I’m not sure why I was chosen, when He had so many other options, yet He left me with none. I didn’t get a chance to say, “No”, or “This is not what I want to do”, because God had already made His plans, and I had no choice, but to follow them.

I’m grateful, because of whatever “it” is that I’ve been called to do. I’m thankful for all the accolades and praise, because to them, I’m everything I told myself I could never be….WORTHY!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

To die for

Two of the many things that often keep me up at night, is thinking whether or not I deserve something or if I’m worthy of anything. I’ve said this before, but it can be a little difficult for me to accept gifts or praise from people, because I began to question if I truly deserve it, let alone am worthy of it. I’ve sat countless of times and recollected where this feeling stems from, but I just can’t seem to pinpoint the source of my negative thinking. However, although I doubt myself, I know there’s one person who doesn’t. In fact, He knows how worthy and deserving I am, that He was willing to prove it, by dying.

That’s huge that He would be willing to lay down His life for someone He’d never met, let alone heard of. If Jesus thinks so much of me, then why can’t I think the same for myself? There are days I struggle and still question, “Why me”, but then I can’t help but to counter with, “Why not me”? No one is perfect, and truth be told, I wouldn’t want to be. I’m not going to always get it right, the first, second or third time, but what I do know is, I’m the right person, to receive everything good that happens to me, and so do you! I’ve lived with guilt for a long time, and was afraid (and sometimes still am) to share my good news with others, because of their negative reaction.

For the most part, the responses are good, but I guess after the blessings continues, it can be a little too much for them to handle. I began to become almost ashamed of what God was doing for me, because I allowed people to make me feel as though I was not deserving of greatness, when I know that’s all I’m destined for. Besides, I can’t fail, when I have someone who has my back, that has never experienced a loss. Although people may not think highly of me, let alone much, one thing I am for certain of, and that is the fact that I am to die for! Don’t let anyone question your value, when you are invaluable to God.

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Verified (No “check” sign needed)

If you frequent social media, Instagram in particular, you’ll notice that only the “verified” have a blue check mark besides their handle (account name). Typically, this means that the person possesses some type of status or are extremely popular, to say the least. They’ve been validated by society, and unless you have the blue check sign, then you’re not a part of the esteemed. To some this may not matter, but for many, it’s everything. Their total existence is based upon the acceptance of others. They can’t live, unless they know people are “checking” for them.

I’d like to take a few minutes of your time, to briefly talk about a man who “verified” you over two-thousand years ago. This post is not intended to infringe upon anyone’s beliefs, but to let you know, you’ve been validated long before you were created. In fact, if someone was willing to take responsibility for your sins, and die as a result of it, that alone should be an indication of your worth. Too often, we give society credit for “building” people, when the only thing they’re responsible for is tearing them down. Depending upon what you do or the level of interest one has in you, you’re “in” and the next minute, you’re out.

However, regardless of what you do or the nature of what you did, Jesus will never count you out! Your validation comes from Him, so society’s approval is neither required nor needed. With Him, you can make one-thousand or more mistakes, and your approval rating still won’t go down. He forgives and forgets, but society remembers and condemns. Who’s validation do you want more? Do you need a blue check sign to be accepted, or can you accept His verification as being enough?

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue