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It’s hot, but there’s a PURPOSE for the flames!

On last Sunday, I had the wonderful pleasure of being the Guest Speaker for my church, and delivering the “Word” for the day. I shared with my congregation the brave story of a woman named DeOndra, and with you all, I’d like to do the same. I don’t know where you are in your life, where you want to be, nor how things maybe going for you, but I know without a doubt, regardless of your circumstances, we can all benefit and relate to DeOndra’s story.

DeOndra is a 34-year-old woman who has had every curve-ball that life can pitch thrown at her, yet she’s somehow managed to dodge them all.  She’s been extremely poor, depressed, contemplated suicide, and the list grows higher than Mount Everest. Disappointed in her circumstances, but certainly not God, she knew things would eventually get better.  However, as time passed and things remained the same, she began to lose faith, but fought to keep it, because her hope was already gone.  There were days, weeks, months and years even, that she cried out to God to be saved, but there wasn’t a rescue crew in sight.  One day, in the midst of her pain, she yelled out to God, “If what I am experiencing is any indication of how my life is going to be, then I want out”!

Ultimately, her situation became too “hot” for her to handle, so she was ready to be consumed by the flames.  Needless to say, DeOndra was desperate, and leapt at the first thing she thought would bring her relief.  Unbeknownst to her, although she may have felt the “heat”, God was already working to extinguish the “flames”.  You see, He created her on purpose, with a purpose, and what she was experiencing was all a part of HIS purpose! Besides, God was not going to allow something to die, when His intent was for it to live! Not wanting to keep you in the dark any longer, I AM “DeOndra”, and without an ounce of shame, I AM so glad God protected me from the flames!

When I was going through all that I was, I didn’t realize then, what I do now, what God was doing. He allowed me to go through trials, tribulations, adversity and so much more, because He was preparing me and giving me prior experience to handle the chaos and blessings to come. I needed to fall down 20 times and get back up 21, because I was going to encounter some people who are still down after their fall. He entrusted me to help them rise again, because I’ve been in their position and therefore, know EXACTLY what to do! You too maybe in a situation that is too hot and unbearable, but understand, God has a purpose for you also!

Whatever you do, hang on and know that your HELP is on the way! Remember, it’s hot, but there is a PURPOSE for the flames!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Posted in Still here

Still here

Anybody that knows me, knows that I am notoriously private (well, I try to be). Sometimes, I’m pretty easy to talk to and other times I’m not (at least that’s what I’ve been told). As I’ve gotten older and wiser, I’ve let my guard down (just a little) and try to be transparent, because I never know who I may help along the way.

It’s no secret that I share a lot of my personal hardships and life experiences on this forum. What’s simply a “post” to you, is more than words; it’s my life! As discreet as I try to be, it’s no secret my battle with depression and anxiety, amongst other things. However, one of the biggest things I’ve struggled with, is whether or not I deserved to “still be here”.

Last year, one of the biggest and bravest things I decided to do, was want more for myself. I decided that I was no longer going to be held captive to my past, my mistakes and most important, the negative thoughts I had of myself. Besides, I couldn’t fault people for not feeling or thinking positive of me, when I didn’t require it from myself.

NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) is one of many organizations that I support (for “obvious” reasons). During one of my many days of online shopping (lol), I came across this jewelry maker on Etsy, and one of the most popular items she sold, was “still here” necklaces, that were followed by the semi-colon sign.

Well, if you are a stranger to the MI (Mental Illness) world, the semi-colon represents a “pause in one’s story, but not the end”. Depression and anxiety was not the end of me (although it tried to destroy me), so I was eager to purchase a necklace, support the cause and allow others to see how brave I was.

My bravery and transparency has allowed others to come forth and share their story. One of my students came to me yesterday, after months of being absent, stating to me why she hadn’t been as active as she needs to be. She shared with me that she is struggling very bad with depression and anxiety, so much, that she literally had to force herself out of bed, and even she doesn’t know how she was able to do it.

Immediately, I felt her anguish, pain and most of all, I felt for her, because not too long ago, I was “trying to get up out of that bed”. I knew then, why I was “still here”….

I don’t care what you are going through or have been through. Never question why you are “still here”…just be thankful that you are!

Until next time my Note takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue