On the right path

A year ago, I wanted to quit my job. Although I love what I do, it was no longer fulfilling to me. My energy went from a ten to a 4, and I started to question what was I doing “this” for. However, because of the nature of my job and the fact that so many people depend on me and rely upon my energy to get them going, I kept going. But, my love for something else kept me going after it. Therefore, I applied for job, after job after job. Although I didn’t expect to get all of them, I did think I had at least one in the bag. However, the only thing that was in my bag, was the ever growing letters of denial I had received.

“Are you serious”? Is what I kept asking, because there wasn’t a shadow of a doubt, that I wasn’t going to get one offer. After all, how could I not, when I was more than qualified. I was so upset and hurt, to say the least, because I just knew I was on my way out. But, I couldn’t leave, because God needed me to stay. Not just for my students, but for the person who was on their way to me. Unaware of any of this, I still fought to leave. Besides, I felt I had done my due diligence and it was time to head in a different direction. Sad to say, the only direction I was headed to, was back into my office. I felt defeated! So, I just resigned to the idea that I must be there for a reason.

Many months ago, I met this individual who is in a really bad situation. Regrettably, this person had taken a few wrong turns too many, and ended up in a place I’m sure no one would want to be. After getting to know this individual on a more deeper level, I saw the guilt, hurt and pain, not only as remorse for what was done, but what was done to said individual. Not knowing what else to do, I immediately went into counsel mode. Although what this person had done was senseless, after a couple of months of talking, it all made sense to me. The reason I couldn’t flee, was because this person needed me!

Had I left when I did, we would’ve never crossed paths, and I wouldn’t have positively impacted this individual, let alone changed their life for the better. Ultimately, they didn’t know better existed or how to do anything right, because for the majority of their life, all they knew and did was wrong. And damn wrong at that! As a result of the crossing of our paths, I’ve gained a life-long friend and someone who has helped me to recognized some things in myself, that I thought I had confronted and resolved. Sometimes I question, “What would’ve happened had I left”?

I’m sure I will never know, but one thing that I do know, God knows exactly what He’s doing. Just because you see an open path, doesn’t mean you’re supposed to take it. You may be in a similar situation as I was. You are trying your best to get out, because your next best thing is waiting for you down the road. However, God can see further down the road, while our sight is limited to what’s in front of us. In other words, we can’t see what He can. There maybe something down the line that could potentially hurt you or put you in a place far worse than the one you’re in. I know you want to leave, but be still, because you are on the right path! When the time comes, He’ll move you!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Yes, you can

You don’t have the resources to start a business, so you don’t move forward. You want to go back to school, but you’re not sure where to start, so you just quit. You want to buy a house, but your credit is low and you don’t have the down payment. There are so many things you want to do, yet for whatever reason, you’re holding back. You’ve come up with a thousand excuses as to why you can’t, yet I can give you one good reason why you can. “You can do all things in Christ who strengthens you”. If He wants you to have a business, He’ll provide the resources. If He wants you to go to school, He’ll give you the start and see you to the end. You want to be a homeowner? He wants you to be one too, so He’s going to make a way for you. Remember, we are heirs to His Kingdom, His rich Kingdom, so of course He’s going to give you the absolute best! God is with you in everything that you do, so the next time you choose to do something, remember, because of Him, YOU CAN!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Do your thing!

What’s something that you absolutely can’t live without? Before you respond, necessitites is not the answer (well, at least in this case)! This “thing”, whatever it is, is something your mind won’t let go of. You eat, sleep and breathe it! It brings you so much joy and you just can’t fathom what your life would look like, if it wasn’t in it. If you haven’t figured out by now, that “thing” is your purpose, and writing to bring hope, motivation and encouragement, is mine. It may not bring me riches or change my socioeconomic satus, but it does bring a smile to my face and warmth to my heart, to know the positive impact my words have on people. Maybe you’re in a position that is not pleasing or fulfilling to you, but you do it anyway, because it pays the bills and puts food on the table. We all have to live, right? I totally understand, and by no means am I insinuating that you quit your job, especially when you have responsibilities. However, I am implying that you find your purpose and do your (damn) thing! Don’t live the rest of your life miserable or enslaved to a “job”, when your purpose is your “career”!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

It’s hot, but there’s a PURPOSE for the flames!

On last Sunday, I had the wonderful pleasure of being the Guest Speaker for my church, and delivering the “Word” for the day. I shared with my congregation the brave story of a woman named DeOndra, and with you all, I’d like to do the same. I don’t know where you are in your life, where you want to be, nor how things maybe going for you, but I know without a doubt, regardless of your circumstances, we can all benefit and relate to DeOndra’s story.

DeOndra is a 34-year-old woman who has had every curve-ball that life can pitch thrown at her, yet she’s somehow managed to dodge them all.  She’s been extremely poor, depressed, contemplated suicide, and the list grows higher than Mount Everest. Disappointed in her circumstances, but certainly not God, she knew things would eventually get better.  However, as time passed and things remained the same, she began to lose faith, but fought to keep it, because her hope was already gone.  There were days, weeks, months and years even, that she cried out to God to be saved, but there wasn’t a rescue crew in sight.  One day, in the midst of her pain, she yelled out to God, “If what I am experiencing is any indication of how my life is going to be, then I want out”!

Ultimately, her situation became too “hot” for her to handle, so she was ready to be consumed by the flames.  Needless to say, DeOndra was desperate, and leapt at the first thing she thought would bring her relief.  Unbeknownst to her, although she may have felt the “heat”, God was already working to extinguish the “flames”.  You see, He created her on purpose, with a purpose, and what she was experiencing was all a part of HIS purpose! Besides, God was not going to allow something to die, when His intent was for it to live! Not wanting to keep you in the dark any longer, I AM “DeOndra”, and without an ounce of shame, I AM so glad God protected me from the flames!

When I was going through all that I was, I didn’t realize then, what I do now, what God was doing. He allowed me to go through trials, tribulations, adversity and so much more, because He was preparing me and giving me prior experience to handle the chaos and blessings to come. I needed to fall down 20 times and get back up 21, because I was going to encounter some people who are still down after their fall. He entrusted me to help them rise again, because I’ve been in their position and therefore, know EXACTLY what to do! You too maybe in a situation that is too hot and unbearable, but understand, God has a purpose for you also!

Whatever you do, hang on and know that your HELP is on the way! Remember, it’s hot, but there is a PURPOSE for the flames!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Still here

Anybody that knows me, knows that I am notoriously private (well, I try to be). Sometimes, I’m pretty easy to talk to and other times I’m not (at least that’s what I’ve been told). As I’ve gotten older and wiser, I’ve let my guard down (just a little) and try to be transparent, because I never know who I may help along the way.

It’s no secret that I share a lot of my personal hardships and life experiences on this forum. What’s simply a “post” to you, is more than words; it’s my life! As discreet as I try to be, it’s no secret my battle with depression and anxiety, amongst other things. However, one of the biggest things I’ve struggled with, is whether or not I deserved to “still be here”.

Last year, one of the biggest and bravest things I decided to do, was want more for myself. I decided that I was no longer going to be held captive to my past, my mistakes and most important, the negative thoughts I had of myself. Besides, I couldn’t fault people for not feeling or thinking positive of me, when I didn’t require it from myself.

NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness) is one of many organizations that I support (for “obvious” reasons). During one of my many days of online shopping (lol), I came across this jewelry maker on Etsy, and one of the most popular items she sold, was “still here” necklaces, that were followed by the semi-colon sign.

Well, if you are a stranger to the MI (Mental Illness) world, the semi-colon represents a “pause in one’s story, but not the end”. Depression and anxiety was not the end of me (although it tried to destroy me), so I was eager to purchase a necklace, support the cause and allow others to see how brave I was.

My bravery and transparency has allowed others to come forth and share their story. One of my students came to me yesterday, after months of being absent, stating to me why she hadn’t been as active as she needs to be. She shared with me that she is struggling very bad with depression and anxiety, so much, that she literally had to force herself out of bed, and even she doesn’t know how she was able to do it.

Immediately, I felt her anguish, pain and most of all, I felt for her, because not too long ago, I was “trying to get up out of that bed”. I knew then, why I was “still here”….

I don’t care what you are going through or have been through. Never question why you are “still here”…just be thankful that you are!

Until next time my Note takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue