God’s Plan

Dana has just received some wonderful news! The very thing that has been desperately trying to hold her back, has decided to let go. After a year of being captive, Dana is finally about to be set free! Her captor has decided to get rid of her, because she feels she’s no longer of use. Although Dana has been a good and faithful servant, her services was just not “enough”. On several occasions she’s tried to have Dana removed, but she didn’t have the power too. Having seen no other way to let her go, she instead opted to “cut” her loose. The enemy was happy, because she thought by “releasing” Dana, it meant she had “nowhere else to go”. Needless to say, the only place Dana is going, is UP! She’s excited and overjoyed, because she knows the enemy’s plans has failed, but God’s has not!

It’s easy to accept the fate someone has chosen for your life, especially when you feel it’s all there is. However, you can worry about the things they’re going to do, or you can rest in knowing there’s nothing God can’t handle. Like Dana, you may be in a “position” that plans to “write you off”, but understand this, “God knows the plans He has for you…..they are plans to prosper and not harm you, but plans to give you hope and future”. What God has for you, is for you, and He “plans” to allow your enemies to see it!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

At least I didn’t give up

I don’t feel like fighting today, so that’s it, you win

Call me lazy, worthless or whatever you may, but I’m pretty sure I’ve already done the same

Every new day is looking more and more like the old

And I don’t think I can continue to relive the past

I should be over this, but I’m not, so bear with me while I talk this shit out

I need to get a grip, but when I think I do, I lose my handle

I’m tired and have never worked so hard to live

Funny, because I make life seem so easy, right?

Um, yeah, about that…..I have a very good way of manipulating one’s perception

I’m what you would call the “Pen and Teller” of distortion

Because I’ll have you seeing one thing, when it’s something entirely different

Tricks aren’t necessarily my thing, but hey, when you’re desperate, you’ll use whatever you have

Speaking of have, have you ever wondered why people talk about the same thing over and over again?

For some, they’re in need of attention, others a cry for help, but for me, it’s cleansing

Every time I open my mouth to speak, I rid myself of toxins

Otherwise, if I held on to them, they’d kill me…..literally!

Sheesh! The struggle is real, but I want to be able to say I got through it

You probably don’t get me, understand me or my reason for doing what I do

And much like you I sometime feel the same

However, while you’re so busy trying to figure me out

I’m here wondering if I’ll make it out of bed today

My life is like a whirlpool, stuck in one never-ending cycle

But, although I’m not at my best, at least I didn’t give up

I know a lot of my posts are repetitive, hard, admittedly depressing and no doubt “dark”. However, the more and more I talk about my struggles, the closer I get to the “light”. For those of you still struggling to make it through the tunnel, hold on, “A change is going to come”!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Hold on, it gets better!

“Don’t give up when dark times come. The more storms you face in life, the stronger you’ll be. Hold on. Your greater is coming.”
Germany Kent

I talk about God a lot (get over it), and I converse with Him daily! Almost to the point, I have to preface and say, “I know we just talked, but I forgot something”. Am I the only one that finds humor in that (probably)? Earlier this year, when I was completing my goal board, I asked God to bless me with everything on my board, and to not wait until the end of the year to do it. I know, the gall of me!

Of the few thousand (LOL) things I asked Him for, was to open the door of endorsements and paid speaking opportunities. Let’s just say, only 3 months into the new year, I was blessed with the opportunity to speak with RAH High School students. Not only are they paying me for the event, but they are also purchasing copies of my first book, “Glitter but no gold: How I turned my wounds into wisdom”, AND they are having a book signing for me!

I knew God worked in “Kairos time” (meaning His timing), but I didn’t think it would be so soon. I have been in complete awe and shock, because this just seems so surreal to me! I kept saying to myself, “Somebody wants to PAY to hear me speak”!!!! Not only that, I have been tapped to be Guest Speaker of my church and I’ve already booked other paid speaking engagements as well! God is truly good, and I am forever grateful, thankful and appreciative of Him for answering prayers.

There were so many times and days that I thought I’d never get anything I prayed for. It seems I kept sending up requests, and not getting a “yes” in return. However, the “yes” was always there; I simply had to wait for it! Just think, who would’ve known what would’ve happened, had I decided to not “hold on”. I can’t begin to tell you how many times I wanted to give up, because I felt it would’ve been better than staying the course.

I know this is only the beginning for me, and I am so grateful and anticipate the things God has in store for me! You too are probably wanting to throw in the towel and quit, but remember, “NO WHITE FLAGS” (see my previous post on this)! You maybe tired and want to just let go, but “hold on, it gets better”!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue