In demand

You’re a clown!….and everyday, you feel like your life is one big circus. Granted there aren’t any tightropes or great, big rings of fire to jump through, but sometimes, it still feels as though you’re walking a mighty fine line. Because of the position you’re in, you always feel the need to “perform”. There are days you want to take time for yourself, but you can’t, because these people came to see you, so you’ve got to give them what they “want”. Besides, they’re depending on you, so you can’t fail them now.

Your ringmaster is selfish and inconsiderate, and although you speak of only one, there actually are many. They are comprised of students, family, friends and even strangers. Yes, strangers! You can’t help it, because innately, you’re just a caring person (probably a little too caring). I guess we can say, you want to appease them all, that’s why you try to be everything to everybody, except to yourself. We get it, you’re just downright foolish. However, we can call you whatever we’d like, but we know you’re not selfish, they are!

Are you tired yet? Do you want to quit, but can’t, because you’re “in demand”? When does the show ever end? When the people stop coming? Or once the curtain calls, and by curtains, I mean the “final” ones. It feels good to be wanted and needed, but don’t ever allow the demands of life and people, to get in the way of doing what’s best for you! I know you want to be heroic, but instead of trying to always save others, use some of that energy to take care of you!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

I used to love you, but…..

I used to love you, but…..you’ve changed!

I’m not saying that isn’t a good thing, but it just isn’t good for me

You’ve taken away all of my benefits and have left me to fend for myself

Now who am I going to use?

I can’t make it without you, and even if I tried, it just wouldn’t be the same

You covered me, had my back and put me in a position to win

But, ever since you walked away, I’ve done nothing but lose

There’s no way I can make a comeback unless you come back!

So what? You’re just gonna leave me hanging like that?

You think you’re better than me now?

Well, before you go putting your head in the clouds

Just remember, I know who you are

You can run all you’d like, but you can never get away from me

I…..CREATED…..YOU

How dare you try to change, when we’ve been together for so long?

What is it? Am I not good enough for you now?

It’s funny what change will do to you, but that’s okay, because I don’t need you anyway!

Go ahead and have your fun, but I wouldn’t get too comfortable if I were you

When you find out things aren’t all you thought they’d be, you’ll be back

And I’ll be right here waiting

Sometimes it can be hard to change, especially when you are so used to being a certain way. You want to grow and get better, but a lot of times, you get in your own way. You’ll sabotage your growth, because even you aren’t comfortable with who you’re becoming. It’s okay to change, but don’t allow who you used to be, keep you from who you’re supposed to be!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue