They could be you

“I’m hungry”, said the man, and “I have no money for food”.

I gave, because he was me.

“Can you help me, please? I was evicted out of my home, and I have no place to go”.

I gave, because she was me.

“Ma’am, I’ve lost my job and don’t know how I’m going to provide for my family”, said the woman holding the sign on the street corner.

I gave, because they were me.

I know what it’s like to be hungry, homeless, jobless, destitute, in need and without. No matter who I see or regardless of what their situation is, I give, because I want to help. But, more importantly, I give because God gave me! Don’t ever turn your back on those in need, because one day, “they could be you”!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Rejuvenated

On Friday, February 21, 2020, I had my final session of Therapy! My Therapist called me on Monday, February 24, 2020 to confirm what I had felt for months, and to my surprise, my response was much more different from what I’d thought it would be. I was extremely happy and relieved, but apart of me was a little anxious. I had enjoyed our therapeutic relationship for so long, that I thought I’d be empty without it. But, I reminded myself, that although she wouldn’t be there, the techniques she gave me would. Not only that, the very thoughts I had fought for 14 months to rid myself of, were trying to make a re-appearance. One of the worst things it told me was, “Don’t get too happy, because you’re going to f****** up”. I momentarily entertained my anxiety, until I remembered that I had been equipped with the weapons and tools to fight back. I uttered, “Although you’re strong, I have become much more stronger than you, so don’t you f***** up”!

I was so proud of myself for recognizing what I was up against, but more importantly, happy that I took a stance and didn’t allow my thoughts to get the best of me, because I had worked too hard do what was best for me! I’ll admit, those were the most grueling 14 months ever, but I am so thankful that I ignored the stigma and listened to all the signs of destruction. I lived in agony and silence for 21 years, because I was too afraid to ask for something my pain had been telling me I needed, which was help! However, I thought my medication and writing would eventually take care of what I had been feeling, so I really didn’t see the need in paying someone to hear my problems. Although those things provided me with temporary relief, they couldn’t heal me the way Therapy did. Going forward, I know I will no doubt run into more speed bumps, but it’s nothing I can’t “get over”. I feel amazing, like a brand new woman, but most of all, I feel rejuvenated!

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Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Enjoy

Have you ever been so happy and excited about the great things that are taking place in your life, that you can barely wait to see what happens next? Do you find yourself rushing to get to another adventure, although you’re not finished with the one you’re on? Great! Because, I thought I was the only one. The last few years have been pretty amazing for me, and I couldn’t be more happier. However, I couldn’t be more impatient either, because I’m constantly in a hurry to get to the next phase of my journey. Yet, I have to question myself, “Are you really enjoying the journey”? After all, how can I be, if my mind has left the “party”, only to plan the upcoming one. Rather than “bolting” like Usain to the next level, I’m just going to sit still and enjoy the fruits of my labor!

Don’t get so caught up living your life as though you are in a race. Slow down and appreciate the small things, as you look forward to the bigger ones to come.

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

More than you’ll ever know

When I look back on my awards, degrees and times of recognition, I say, “Wow! You did that! I’m so proud of you”. Today, I understand the value of all those accolades, because I didn’t see it then. To be honest, I didn’t look at them as accomplishments, but merely something I “had to do”. I’d literally “live in the moment”, and quickly move on to the next thing. “You can’t dwell too long”, I’d tell myself. “Keep it moving, or you’ll be put in a position where you can’t”. Good riddance! No wonder I couldn’t enjoy the fruits of my labor. However, I now realize, they are worth more than I’ll ever know. I don’t take any of it for granted or think so little of it, because there are many people who didn’t have the privilege of going to college and earn two degrees like me, let alone one. I’m grateful for every accomplishment, because it lets me know I not only “did that”, but I EARNED it….and all the adoration as well!

Anything you do, regardless of how big or small, always be proud!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Struggling to succeed

You’re looking at a lifeless situation, but not to the One who can help

You’ve tried to do things on your own, but you can’t do it all by yourself

The hill of burdens sits so high, and you’re afraid to make the climb

You’ve attempted before, but you didn’t succeed, so you don’t see the point in trying

Winds of doubt surround your faith, and threaten to blow it away

So run for cover, into the arms who loves you, and promises to keep you safe

Defeat shines brighter than the sun’s beam, and it’s more than you can withstand

But all it takes if for God to speak, and it disappears upon His command

It may seem as though you’ve lost, but look again, for you’ve been deceived

No matter what you’re up against, you’ll win, if only you just believe

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Clarification

Give me the credit when it’s due, but you can keep the exaltation and praise

I could never take the place of God, nor would I have it any other way

People are quick to place you in a position, that’s greater than ones wants and needs

But, I’m not above anyone else, so lower your pedestal and bring me down please

There seems to be a misconception, surrounding my identity

I’ve been “branded”, “labeled” and “stereotyped”, but none of it is a reflection of me

The center of your focus should be my work, so please pay the woman no mind

I don’t want the fame nor exposure, I’m anointed, I ALREADY shine

For the people who “think” they know all about me, you have no clue of my situation

And for those of you yet to know me, I hope this offers you some clarification

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

Taking it back

You have something that belongs to me. I’m not sure why you took it, when it wasn’t yours to begin with. However, I need it back! It’s been gone for so long, that I forgot what it felt like. I’ve become so weak, because it held all my strength. No matter what I was going through, it always reminded me that everything was going to be okay. To be honest, I didn’t know that I could miss something so much, until I was without it. I’ve lost my mind, because I no longer have peace of mind. So, hand it over, because I’m taking it back!

Stop letting thieves steal from you. You saw what it did to your “joy”.

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue