I’m currently reading this Bible app plan titled, “Tasting Dirt: When you’re disappointed with God.” The Author, Sara Hall, chronicled times in her life where she was disappointed with God, and how she overcame them. As I was reading her story, she shared that she’d suffered a miscarriage, and “was undone and completely overwhelmed by hurt, loss, fear, anger, and desperation, as she drowned in disappointment.” She continued by stating, “Disappointment is the emotion we feel when we realize that something we believed to be true is untrue. It is a specific kind of hurt. Disappointment is unexpected because its primary cause is our unmet expectations, resulting in an emotional upheaval similar to whiplash…It’s like lifting the fork to our mouths expecting cake, but tasting dirt instead.”
In my head, I shouted and gave her a round of applause, because I’d finally read someone else’s story on how they dealt with disappointment from God, as I struggled to overcome my own. Oftentimes, we treat our lives like Instagram reels, highlighting snippets of the good things God has done for us, while never showcasing the full picture. We only want to share the highs and not the lows, because then we’d be forced to not only tell how “Good God is,” but the times in which we felt He was not. Let’s be honest, we all know God is more than good, but as a result of some difficulties we face, we sometimes question and have a hard time believing that He is, especially when we know He could’ve easily not allowed bad things to happen.
Trials and tribulations are inevitable, and so is bad news. However, it’s how you deal with it all that makes the difference, and sometimes, that difference is trying extremely hard to trust, wait, and be patient with God. I’m not going to lie and say that it’s not hard, and I’m not going to lie and tell you it’s not doable, because it is. The question is, “Will you do it?”
The next time you find yourself like Hall and I, expecting one thing while getting another, try not to get upset, angry or disappointed with God. I know you’re just as much as tired as I am of being bitter, but stay positive and think about the sweet things that are on its way to you.
Until next time my NOTE takers!