I was used

I’ve gone through a lot, but I did it all for you. I didn’t intentionally mean for things to happen as they have, because if the decision was mine, it would’ve never been made. Excuse me if I sound bitter, but I was used to make things a little bit sweeter for you. Do you know how many storms I’ve weathered, so the sun could shine your way? Do you know how many times I’ve lied in bed depressed, but God commanded me to get up, even though I wanted to stay? I’ve been subjected to some of my darkest times, but If I hadn’t, you wouldn’t believe there’s light at the end of the tunnel. Most of my nights were sleepless, and involved a lot of crying, but I did it so you could be at rest. I’m the perfect example of “not looking like what I’ve been through,” but isn’t it ironic how what I’ve been through looks just like you? I didn’t want to be an example, but God used me, so you could see what not to do. It didn’t matter that I was broken, as long as He could use me to fix you. All of the stress and anxiety took a toll on my body, but my sickness is what made you well. So tell me, which do you consider to be worse? The things that I’ve suffered, or how you were healed as a result of my hell?  

I was used, so you could get better. God allowed me to experience some things first, because He knew I could handle it, but you on the other hand, would need help. Although my personal hardships hurt and made me feel extremely terrible, I feel good knowing those very hardships are going to help you overcome. Stop thinking you’re alone, when so many people have been where you are. If we survived, so will you!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Deetra La’Rue

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