I was always the concerned one, whether it be about my physical attributes, weight, or someone’s opinion of me. It made no difference how minute it was, because I was sure to make a mountain out of a molehill. The constant attacks, belittlement, and unsolicited comments were unwarranted, and definitely something I could’ve done without. I didn’t understand the reason for any of it, until I realized what I had, while still not fully realizing what I have. I’ve been told there is something unique about me, extremely important, valued, and desired, something I’m sure most parents have told their kids (and should).
When I would cry to some of my church mothers, and question, “What have I done?” they’d reply, “Be who God created you to be.” It made no sense to me then, and it halfway doesn’t now, but one thing that I’ve learned over the years and in Therapy, people aren’t talking for nothing. Just think, if you didn’t have anything valuable, what could they possibly say? People are going to talk, and when they do, let them. Do you want to know what I do when I find out someone has conversations about me? I smile, because I know I’m a pretty great subject! My peace of mind is the most expensive thing I own, and I’m not giving it nobody, nor can I afford to undo the improvement Therapy has done on me.
It’s tough having critics, but it’s gotten easier for me not to respond. Silence is a response, and in most cases, it should be our first one.
Until next time my NOTE takers!
Deetra La’Rue
Notes by La'Rue 
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