Notes by La'Rue

I wish I could give myself the same grace, that God gives me. Sometimes, I do things that I think are so shameful and impossible to get over, and no matter what I do to try and get over it, I can’t, because I just can’t forgive myself. There are others who’ve done so much more worse than I have, and although one sin is not greater than the other, I can’t seem to convince myself that mine isn’t. Truth of the matter, I’ve messed up…a lot, but when people ask me the things I’ve done, and I tell them, they look at me and ask, “So what exactly have you done?” They just don’t see it, but I do! Not only do I see what I’ve done, I see me, and I can never see forgiving myself. I’ve received a lot of things in my life, but as T.D. Jakes says, “Self-punishment is the worst sentence you’ll ever receive!”

It doesn’t matter what you’ve done in your life, or how many times you’ve done it. If God has forgiven you for it, then why can’t you? I’m still trying to answer that myself.

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Deetra La’Rue