“I’m sitting in the back”, is the first thing I love to yell when I’m about to go somewhere, specifically on a road trip. I absolutely hate driving, especially if the ride is more than two hours, so I try to limit my time in the driver’s seat as much as possible. Besides, I enjoy site seeing and allow my mind to escape, whereas I’d have to be present, if I were driving. On the contrary, I’ve always been the “take charge” kind of girl, so relinquishing control can be a bit scary, because “I know what to do”, as opposed to wondering if someone else does. Then too, I’m so used to being in control and taking the lead, so it can be hard trusting others, which is another issue in and of itself, that I have to work on.
Nonetheless, this unhealthy behavior has caused me to be overbearing and quite obsessive at times, because I just don’t know when to let someone else “take the wheel”. I’ll be very honest, I love being in control, but I’ve become so tired and drained. I’m beyond overwhelmed and juggling is something I’m no longer good at, or pretend to be, at least. I understand that I can’t do it all, even if I want to (and yes, I really want to). It pains me to say (and type), but I’ve realized it’s time for me to become a passenger, and allow someone else the opportunity to “drive”. It’s not to say that I won’t lead again, but sometimes, it’s good to let someone else do it. I don’t need to always be in control, for things to go right. I’ve just got to trust that they will.
And I TRUST that God will make things right! Do you?
Until next time my NOTE takers!
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