On Sunday, February 09, 2020, I was awarded the Coretta Scott King Legacy Award, for my Community Service, Human Rights, and Social Justice efforts. As I should have been overjoyed with excitement, I really couldn’t be, because I was too busy questioning God, “Why me”? When my sisters recognized me at our family reunion last year, I was honored, but internally, I questioned “There’s four of us, so why me”? When I was asked to serve as Keynote Speaker at church, I screamed, “Oh no! Dear God, why me”? I couldn’t fathom or understand how someone so undeserving as me, deserved to be recognized, because in my eyes, what they saw, I couldn’t see.
Not a day goes by that I don’t receive an email, text or phone call, from someone thanking me for what I’ve done for them, yet I can’t seem to recall what I did. There isn’t anything distinctive that comes to mind, except there’s nothing extraordinary about a woman who’s so ordinary. So, again I ask, “Why me”? After many self-reflections, I no longer question, “Why me”? Instead, I just thank God for using me! I’m not sure why I was chosen, when He had so many other options, yet He left me with none. I didn’t get a chance to say, “No”, or “This is not what I want to do”, because God had already made His plans, and I had no choice, but to follow them.
I’m grateful, because of whatever “it” is that I’ve been called to do. I’m thankful for all the accolades and praise, because to them, I’m everything I told myself I could never be….WORTHY!
Until next time my NOTE takers!
Writefully yours,
Deetra La’Rue
