Finding my way back

Many years ago, I began this quest of “getting back to me”. For a very long time, I felt lost, displaced and so far removed from my element, that I no longer knew where it is was, or how to get there. So, I set out on a trek to see if I could find me, and it’s been one hell of a journey. I knew who I was looking for, so I thought it shouldn’t take long for me to be found. However, it’s taking longer than I expected. While on my way, I began to write in hopes of it bringing me one step closer, but it wasn’t enough to get me there.

I sought the help of family and friends, but even they didn’t know who I was. Turns out I was distant from them, so they couldn’t really tell if it was me, even if I looked them in the face. Having no luck there, I decided I didn’t need anybody, and could figure it out on my own. For years, I went from straight to crooked, and didn’t know if I’d ever get back into shape. There were so many days I’d look myself in the mirror and although I knew it was me, I didn’t know who I was. I wanted to learn more about this person, so, I started therapy and continued searching for me…….and almost a year later, I still am!

Are you lost? Maybe you’ve lost yourself in a relationship, to drugs, sex or abuse and you just can’t seem to find your way back. Perhaps you didn’t think to look for yourself, because you feel you’re already gone. Despair sets in and you can’t help but wonder, if you’ll ever find your way. Please don’t give up, I promise you’re going to get there! Keep looking, keep searching and one day, you’re going to find what you’ve been looking for…..YOU!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue