Notes by La'Rue

I’m stuck, and I have been for quite some time now

As each day passes, I can’t help but wonder if I’ll ever board

Or will I continue to experience yet another delay?

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind waiting, because I’m for certain it’s for a very good reason

It has to be, after all, I’ve been waiting on it for years

However, I’d like to know what’s so “special” that it’s taking me years to get

I’m exhausted, and at this point, I’m tired of sitting still

I’m ready to fly, no better yet, soar…..

But I can’t, because for some reason God is keeping me grounded

Who knows, maybe He’s protecting me from casualty, but it’s not like I haven’t flown before

So I don’t understand what the big deal is……or maybe I am the big deal

Because of my fragileness, He knows I’ve got to be handled with extreme care

Therefore, He won’t just trust anything to carry His most precious cargo

But, that still doesn’t change the fact that I’m stuck!

What’s crazy is that, no matter how hard I’ve tried to take flight

My plans somehow manage to get derailed and I’m left wondering what I did wrong

Because in my eyes, I did all that I knew how right

Truth be told, I’m over this sh…….and, I AM READY TO GO!

Hello Pilot (God)? Are you there? What’s the hold up?

You’ve had more than enough time to get this thing going, so why am I still here?

What is it? You don’t trust me? Are you afraid that I’ll try to takeover

Just as I’ve done all the other times and crash and burn?

So, rather than keep me from calling for an unnecessary SOS

You jump right in and save me

In fact, You’ve always saved me……especially from what I thought was best for me

I’m so glad You thought more for me, than I did myself, and had I done things my way

I would’ve never witnessed this journey, let alone enjoyed it

As I reflect and look at things from Your perspective, I’m exactly where You want me to be

You’ve placed me in a position of preparation, making sure that everything is just right

And from the looks of it, my wait won’t be much longer

I’ll be connecting soon, and until then, I’m going to sit still, be patient and enjoy the layover

For almost twelve years, I’ve been working for the same company. Although it has its ups and downs, I enjoy what I do and being of service to others. Within the past year and a half, I’ve realized the position I’m in is no longer one I wish to hold. I’ve tried relentlessly to “take flight”, but for reasons unknown, I’m still there. There’s an immense feeling of suffocation, fright and frantic thoughts of being “stuck”. I don’t know why I can’t move, but I do know who I’m there for and what I’m there for.

Although I’d like to be flying to my next destination, God is simply saying, “Not yet”. I’ve realized I’m in a period of layover, and no matter what I do, I’m never going to move, until He says so. You may be in a similar position and are overwhelmed with feelings of being stuck, but I can assure you, you aren’t. Be patient, and understand that like me, God is preparing you for the flight you’ve always dreamed of!

Until next time my NOTE takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue