Notes by La'Rue

***Disclaimer*** This post is not intended to push the “agenda of God” on anyone.  You can read to understand my position, but whatever you do, don’t try to change it!

When I talk about God or reference Him “too much”, I’m met with eye rolls, stares of disgust and uncomfortableness (from them, not me). Quickly, I take the form of two popular emoji’s that rolls its eyes and erupts into laughter.  However, when I speak of God, it’s no laughing matter.  I’m very confident and secure in my relationship with God, and have absolutely no guilt, qualms or shame when I speak of Him. He has blessed me abundantly and brought me out of a lot of situations, some that my family and you all will probably never hear of! No, that’s not to say I’m ashamed of what I’ve done nor what He has done for me or brought me through, but when I feel the time is right, I’ll share.

The reason for this post or rant, whatever you want to call it, is because I’m beyond annoyed when people always want to push their agenda or position on me, but when I name drop God, suddenly, I’m trying to convert them or make them a believer.  They even go so far as to bring up my past, “question” my Christianity and whether or not, I’m truly “a child of God”. 

I’m assuming they are looking for a certain way I’m supposed to act, speak or be even, and if I didn’t know any better, I presume it’s very close to perfection.  **Cues bullhorn** I AM NOT PERFECT, nor do I strive to be! I make mistakes (and will continue) just like everyone else and just because I am a child of the Most High, that doesn’t mean I’m supposed to walk on eggshells or be treated any differently than anyone else.

So, you want to hold me to a higher standard than others, but why? Do we all not fall short of His glory at times? Are we all not human? So, what makes you open to mistakes, but tell me I’m off limits from them? You wouldn’t dare be sitting amongst a throne (a judgmental one at that), perhaps? The last time I checked, the very spiritual being you don’t want me to speak of sits atop one of those, and only HE can judge. I get so tired of being cast as fake, phony and false, because I will praise, worship and talk about God in one breath, and iron you out in the next. 

Yes, I know the goal is to strive to be like Him, but again, I’m NOT perfect, He is!  I think the thing that really gets to me the most, is the same individuals dousing judgement on me, are the very ones living in complete sin, while hiding the rocks of stone they so freely decide to cast upon me. Throw all you may, but don’t hold me to a higher standard for things I do or say, when you are literally driving in the lane next to me, waving.  Stop the foolishness, but more importantly, stop the judgement!

Some probably won’t get it, but I hope you get when I say, I’m NOT perfect, but I have an awesome relationship with God and will continue to boast on Him, while making mistakes along the way! I don’t have it all together (and never will), and I am actively trying to “get it right”, whatever that maybe.  However, “Note” takers, don’t allow anyone to change your viewpoint or stance on anything or anyone you feel so strongly on or about.  We can all co-exist with different beliefs and opinions, and just because some doesn’t agree with yours, doesn’t make them better than you.  Let them “judge if they may”!

Until next time my “Note” takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue