Success: When you don’t know how to feel!

I feel overwhelmed! I’m getting all the things I’ve always prayed to God for, but now I don’t know how to process it all. Everything that I’ve prayed years for, is happening so fast, literally right after another, and before I can enjoy one blessing, I’m met with another. This is NOT a complaint or an act of ungratefulness, because I’m sure there are countless of others praying for what I have. However, what do you do when you don’t know how to deal with your blessings? I’m very fortunate and grateful for all that God has bestowed upon me, but sometimes I struggle with them.

Sometimes I don’t feel like an accomplished Author and Writer, and no matter how often people remind me of my success, I just smile and say “thanks”. That’s not to say I’m not appreciative of God’s blessings, because I am. I wrote my first book in 2 days, my second book in 18 days and published both within 4 months of each other (If you are a writer, you know firsthand, this is UNHEARD of), and although I was extremely elated when I completed both and so very proud of myself, no more than a few days later, I felt as though I hadn’t really done anything. It seems the people around me are more proud of me and happy for me, than I am.

Before I published my second book, God blessed me with my very own business, CH1, and I had been praying and fasting to Him for years for that. When I finally got confirmation that it was going to come to fruition, I was so happy and felt extremely accomplished, when I received my business license. However, not even 24hrs later, I was back to feeling “normal”. “What dampened my mood”? I honestly couldn’t answer, let alone had a reason for it. To be honest, right now, I just don’t know how to feel. But, what I do know is, I gotta get a hand on this whole “success” thing…..really fast! I know I’ve got to make a quick adjustment, because God has revealed to me so many more blessings, for 2019 in particular.

When I look back over all that I’ve accomplished, I’m not sure if the reason I feel so “blah”, is because I sometimes feel as though I don’t deserve my blessings, or it could be due to the simple fact that I just don’t know how to process it all, nor do I want the attention that comes along with it. I do know, however, that I am extremely grateful and beyond blessed that God still hears and answers prayers. For all of my “note” takers, rest assured that God hears your prayers and will answer them, in HIS timing, not yours! Due understand that you need to be getting prepared and ready to receive everything that you have asked Him for and more!

Now my prayers have shifted to God, that once He answers them, He doesn’t allow me to become overwhelmed by them! Again, I’m grateful and thankful, but still trying to balance them all. Nonetheless, I know just how He continues to bless me, He’ll help me adapt as well….and He’ll do the same for you!

Until next time my “Note” takers!

Writefully yours,

Deetra La’Rue

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